My knight in shining armour...

Has gone to rescue another princess.

*sigh*

I fully support what he is doing... as he said, "you know what I am like when kids are in danger"

It's just a shame he has to go to the NSW/Queensland border in the middle of the night to do so.

I feel for them, I really do!! Little Miss and I would have gone up with, but for lack of seating in the car when three new bodies are added on the return Journey.

I hope they are alright until he gets there. I hope he does not get himself hurt. I hope that they all make it back to Sydney safe and sound.

It's just a pity he does not have time to say goodnight and goodbye to me before he puts his lance in his hand, armour on his back, and mounts his trusty steed...

Always the bridesmaid...

... well I've never managed to even be one of those. (Well I was once - asked - and then she chose someone else and forgot to tell me about it. I figured she'd asked someone else - so just played nice on the wedding day - when her bridesmaids did not talk to her at all. Seems THAT marriage is ending)....

Enough of that rant and on to another.

*cries* I want to get married. Or even engaged! Both would suit me perfectly! I feel it a personal insult that he does not want to marry me. Screw his whole beliefs (belief going beyond just anti marriage!)... I want a rock damnit. And I want a dress. I have a wedding outfit I could go and buy (see the cinderalla post! the green)... but noooooo.. he has to hate wedding stuff...

*pouts* I hate saying "My Boyfriend" when holding Tara in my arms. I feel like frikken trailer trash for not being married. I hate saying "My Husband" because we are not fricken married - even if we are considered to be "Defacto Husband and Wife" to me, we are *not* there... I can't even say "My Fiance" because he's never going to freaking propose...

I know it is sounds shallow and I should be happy - and I am - do not get me wrong... but I want to be married too!

*pout*

Cinderalla has Grandma Shoes

Tara and I are going to a Ball on the 5th of May. My cousin is doing her debutante ball and it is a formal occasion so we get to be cinderallas for a night :)

Yesterday I went and bought a dress. I fell in love with a light green/sage/grey skirt and corset (for only $20 a piece!!!) but decided to leave it there even though it fit me to a T. It was just impractical as a BoobyFeeding dress!!

So I went and got a little black dress in black jersey with a V neck wrap around thing... so I can booby feed.

Tara is going to be in purple velvet.

I bought a pair of bronze shoes... Ally called them Grandma Shoes. He's a little bit right... ;) but I will be able to be sturdy while slinging Tara LOL.

I am sooo looking forward to this night. We are driving down to Cobram and will be staying with my Aunt and Cousins for almost a week. Very Exciting! :)

My brain is not functioning at the moment... dunno where it has gone, but it has. OOPs

Man-rant ahead. Please mind your step.

ARGH. Men. They can be so damned infuriating sometimes.

I found the missing nappy soaker. I'd be lucky if it fit Tara's Teddybears. This is the second cover he has felted.

How hard is it to *check* the stuff you throw into the washing machine?! No no... for him it's an "all in" approach. Everything that is dirty gets washed - together. Then dried - together.

This particular nappy cover is especially felted - it went to the laundromat... lucky it.

I don't know how many times I have told him that the wool does not get washed. I hand wash them, keep them away from him. Do all I can to make sure he does not touch them. But nooooooo.. in is clean freak madness rampages he goes along and picks up everything he sees and just throws them into the wash....

His response when I show him... "Right! you do all the washing then!" Which I have been doing - when the basket is downstairs (I cannot get it down the stairs)... I was attempting to do it all before the machine broke...

Meh.

Did snuffleupagus have a constant cold?

Tara has one. And I have one. A regular cold that is - not a constant one ;)

Ally was kind enough to share his with us. My poor girl. I hate it when she gets a cold. Not lest because she is poorly. More because she keeps me awake. Selfish git that I am!

Just got sent this picture of my bubba girl.

We didn't do half bad with her, did we! :)

Cheap Cheap!

I found some glasses frames on Ebay. Only problem is I would not be able to try them on first... but what do people think about these glasses here?

I think they are lovely (and CHEAP!) but I am not sure if they would suit my face. I always have great trouble with glasses. Do I risk loosing $20 on them (the cost of a nappy!), or do I just not bother?

My last entry sounded very down on the OH, and frankly, reading over it - I was very harsh. It's not as bad as it sounds. I just get very frustrated with no financial freedom. But he is looking out for us making sure the bills are all paid and there is food on the table and clothes for us to wear. I should not be so quick to have a hissy fit.

In other news - I seem to have managed to knock some logos on the head today - woot!

My eyes are dim... I cannot see...

*singing* I have not brought my specs with me! I.. have.. not.. brought.. my.. specs.. with.. me!

Yup, you heard it folks. My eyes are busted. My left more than my right, and I am actually quite shocked at how much I could NOT see! I have always prided myself on detail and what I can see and pick up.. Oh well. So I need glasses.

About $170 for the lenses with the glare stopper stuff on it - because I have very sensitive eyes that are having further issues than the astigmatism (sp).

If I can find the frames of my other glasses - then it'll be good. if not, at least $130 for frames...

OH said "I guess I better save up for them then"... I sometimes hate being reliant on other people for things... He made me feel very parasitic with that comment. I *know* he could just buy them for me if he really wanted... but he personally does not see the need for me to have to have them just now. He's got similar vision problems and "learned to live with it". "Welcome to My World" is all he said.

I hate money...

I have saved him over $150 or more on nappies/longies/clothes for Tara the last few weeks - and when I really need some money, he makes a big deal of it.. I just feel like shit.

The dizzyspells are not helping.

Oh well.

Maybe if I made up some longies etc and sold them I could buy the glasses myself... $300... about 10 pairs of longies.... mmmmmmm

*sigh*

Bandwagon Jumping...

What are bandwagons, if not to be jumped on?!

Guests, if you would like to take a look to your right and scroll down the page a little you will notice this blog's latest attraction... Progress Bars! Thankyou to Unlikely Words for providing the code and the easy to follow instructions!

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**Please note - I am Obsessive Compulsive about things "matching" and looking right - so if you want a button displayed it MUST be those dimensions... 'cause I'll have a break down and have to edit it myself if it is not... :P otherwise - just deal with a link LOL. If you would like me to make you a button - let me know!

In other things...
This....






Became this...








Which then became these...
Electric Storm Longies!

Ooops

OK... so someone (not naming names), thought they would try their hand at Kool-Aid Dyeing.

It was all going so well - up until the point she decided to start *laughs*

Anways, the colours turned out interesting... they look great in the ball, but knitted up - I am not sure... Will make up my mind when it is finished...

Sooo... why is this post entitled Oops?

That's why....

That's the before (and current) shot... here is the After Shot:

Hehehe... as I said... oops!
More photos to come soon!

Mmmm. foodage.

Take one tin of pre-flavoured tuna. Cook one sachet of Tilda basmati rice. Mix together, top with cheese, nuke for 30 seconds and viola! LUNCH!

Easter show for the rats and mice tomorrow... argh.

Booked in to see the optomitrist (must look up how to spell that!) on Wednesday... Need to find a place that sells cheap glasses 'cause I am quite certain I will end up with some...

Watch this space for a blog entry entitled "Ooops!"

Girlie Girl did not sleep last night. So I did not sleep last night...

Need to decide whether I keep saying to Tara "Want Boobyjuice"... 'cause inevitably that's what she'll end up screaming at me when she's two... "Tar want oobyuce!" I kind of like the other names people have for BM for their kids LOL

I am crocheting like a mad woman... finished Tara's blue Longies.. they are adorable. However doubt they will fit her long - hoping I have enough wool to make another pair... Have another two/three on the go already... must make them bigger. The Halloween Longies, Stacey's Soaker and the Monet Shorties are all wet/lanolised/washed etc... though have a feeling they are not going to be dry for tomorrow... meh.

*twiddles thumbs* Need photos from camera!

Say Cheeeeeese!

So - OH finally uploaded the pics! yippee!!




Oh, you want me to share?! The last two pics are photos of the longies I promised :)

Rewind, press play.

Can I start today over? Please?

I had a wonderful night sleep. Only two booby feeds and lots of sleep. But today things just seem to have gone wrong.

That or hormones are making me think that.

*Bubblebubs order came in - only for nothing to fit Tara - my bad for ordering the wrong size.
*Dog just ate my easter egg
*Accidentally deleted a logo design
*Never made it to the PO for the parcel that is waiting
*Our plans for vaccation keep changing and now it seems it's just going to be a day for the boys fishing
*Girlie Girl decided to hate the car on the way to a friends place and screamed the whole way...

That was just some of it.....

Then there was the bit where OH told a friend to wait at the side of the Station while we come and pick her up. I told him that no - she should not wait there and he said "she'll be fine". She was harassed by someone and he kissed her and was touching her face and tried to buy her food and stuff... she was freaked out, and I feel responsible... :(

meh. it's almost midnight. The day can start over...

Heaven in a shop...

Three times in the last two weeks people have mentioned this shop to me, so today after Mothers Group I headed down the street to find the old shop with wool.

It was behind ricketty windows that were covered in road dust, brown and speckled with the weather. Before I walked through the doors I could see the flecks of colour in the window and I gasped as I realised I was about to walk into a utopia...

It would have been no wider than four metres, shelves up to the ceiling on the right, a table in the middle and shelves on the left. The left hand side was packed with quilters fabrics - a nappy makers dream... In the middle on the table was a set of old charm scales, and some patterns on sale... On the right hand side, and down the back wall were balls and balls and balls of wool. Hundreds of colours, Shades, Plys, Cotton, Acrylic, Mohair and of course, 100% Pure Wool.

I was speaking to the lady and told her I was after varigated wool in particular. She showed me some 12 ply that was just beautiful, and I was just about to buy some when she decided to show me the specials. I had not noticed them behind the counter, but sure enough there were Hanks of wool hung up as if a painting...

There was even more in an old bookcase right next to me at the counter - Tucked away out of plain sight. This was the special stuff.

I ended up coming home with "Lavender" but it is nothing like lavender really. Look at the banner for erica's nappies... that is the colour of the purple... add some navy, some teal in just as vibrant a colour... and that is the 200 gram hank I came away with...

It was expensive (well, compared to the Wool Co wool!)... $24, but it is 100% pure NZ wool, hand dyed in NZ. I am in love with the collection... There was soft muted colours, bright summer colours (citrus is one that caught my eye!), hand painted grey, that has tonal grades through it... Just divine...

I walked in only to get a crochet hook... and only left with wool... Thank goodness I have some hooks that I can use (I just need a 4 for my OTHER project!)

THe more I crochet the more wool I have to buy! MWAHAHA!

(posted at Nappycino)

I did not forget... it just slipped my mind...

I came to the realisation in the shower before... OH and I did not do anything for our Anniversary. We did not even mention it to each other... or pretend to argue over the date - something we do every year.

We mentioned it earlier in the month and argued a little about the date - but that was it...

*sighs* we never forget.

The nightmare of a clothie...

It seems that cockroaches *shudder* have eated the control panel in our washing machine. One of the pitfalls of having computerised appliances. Our Microwave is temperamental for the same reason. I'm now waiting for the toaster to go. We have a HUGE problem with bugs in this house. I keep telling the OH we need to have pro's come in and nuke the bastards, but he just gets roach traps and bombs and does it himself. We so need to move.

Then again - moving will only make the bastards follow us inside the appliances. *gag* I hate bugs.

So, yeah, back to the nightmare. The machine is not working, and I have no idea when it will be working again - so I need to either a) handwash nappies or b) use disgustables. Plastic Poopey Pants. It is going to be be the latter because, frankly, I do not have the stamina or the inclination to handwash lots of nappies. I'll handwash her night nappies, and I will go through the (full) washing machine to try and find her other ones so they are not left being yuck in the machine, and hand wash those... but the poor girl is going to have to wear PPP. bleh.

On the upside - my nappy bag will be lighter while walking around the Easter Show. There are too many downsides to mention.

I want my washing machine to work damnit!

The Monet Soaker(s) are coming along. The one I thought was too small, looks like it might actually fit, now I have the extra wool.. This now means the pair I started this morning (and am a fair chunk into) are MILES too big. I am debating whether I keep going on them and sell them, or unravel them and make something else out of them. Decisions Decisions.

Bah Humbug.

I need more coffee. OH had better bring back a lot of milk!

The greatest show on earth.....!

It's Sydney Royal Easter Show time!!

We are going out this afternoon to see it... and will probably see it numerous times over the next two weeks...

It also means however, that school holidays are about to hit. I SOOOO do not want to have to deal with screaming kids down our street for two weeks! (they are currently screaming now).

I went to the darkside last night - and gave Tara a dummy. Now I understand there are people out there who have used them and don't have a problem with them - that is great - but we did not want to use a dummy, and I can't stand the look of them - but Tara has started comfort sucking - but she does it wrong on my boob and is hurting. She does this at night only - so last night we tried the dummy - and it worked! She'd suck it asleep, and then would spit it out and all was fine in the world. If she was hungry she got fed of course, but if she was just sucking for the sake of it... then in it went. She decided however to wake early this morning so I have been up since 5.30!

Though she is back asleep again.

I am not sure how I feel about the dummy yet. My boobs have been getting sore, and I know I should just suck it up, but with the lump in one boob hurting a bit now (yes yes, doctor visit coming soon! no need to nag!) I do not want to aggrivate stuff too much... mmm.

I feel like AF is about to knock.. Surley no. Please no. That or I am ovulating. who knows. Body does weird things.

Pimple in my nose hurts. I know you really wanted to know that.

I am sitting here in bra and nickers freezing my tooshie off.

I wonder if I could make Tara a mock Drizabone for the easter show... mmm....

Today is sewing day!!

OK.. must go...!

Softer than my babes bum

I got fluffy mail *gush*

Bambooholic in Fruit Tingle from The Cauldron

I don't think I have felt anything so soft in my life.

And I got baby oil too!!

Awwwh... *gushes* I might just make Tara wear it today - just for the show off factor..! too bad if it does not absorb yet LOL

To do, or not to do... that is the question!

My to-do list is getting longer and longer and longer...

• Buy three balls of wool to finish the newborn soaker and to make Tara's soaker out of the funky wool I bought last week!
• To finish Em's pressies. Must get length of foot size...
• Finish Pixie Boots
• Work on Purple Soaker
• Finish Logo for someone...
• Send fabric to Leah...
• Send fabric to Belinda...
• Call my dad
• Pick up my blood test

Argh. So much to do.. so little time.. and half of these things are so exciting to be working on I start.. then get sidetracked with another.. and another.. and another...!

My brain is suffering from overload!

Be patient and all will be revealed!

Well, here they are! The elusive Halloween Longies!

The front anyways!



Colours are a little off due to the camera phone, but they are *almost* there...

Crossing the finish line...

They are done! (ok - well 99.9% done!). Embelishments in the wool are done, I just have to add a couple of final touches, but I cannot do that until tomorrow.

I took some photos with my (new) phone only for it to send the MMS before I was ready - twice! so I threw some money down the drain and have no pics atm. I will get OH to upload the pics that are on the camera currently, take some pics and get him to upload them... or else I will use his photo phone thingo do it that way.

But Yay me!

Another finishing line that was crossed today was Tara's Birth Dramas. I think today I crossed the line between feeling traumatised, and coming to peace. I saw the OB who I was admitted under today. I have to say - he was absolutely lovely. He started off by doing a check on my legs. I still have no proper sensation in my legs post birth and he, although not concerned, would prefer that I get some proper response in regards to the healing time of them. So I had a referal for an appointment with the neurology department.

Then, he wrote up a form for me to have some bloods taken due to me feeling the same things I did with the anaemia with Tara pre-birth/in post natal. We are checking the blood count to see if that is actually a problem.

Then we got onto Tara's birth. He went through my entire file with me from start to finish. He explained the dips and peaks on the charts from the monitoring and why they were occuring where they were. He explained why he thought Tara went into distress. Ultimately he believes it was a collection of the Syntocin, the location of the placenta, the position I was laying, and the intensity of the contractions on the placenta causing restricted oxygen to her (ie: she would panic the placenta was being squished, and would not get the normal amount of oxygen which would cause the heart rate to drop).

He said if it was him, he probably would have done the c-section earlier, at the first sign the PH levels were decreasing, mixed with the patterns of her heart rate.

I questioned the cephalo pelvic-disproportion written on my discharge notes. He was horrified they wrote it, and believe it was probably some monkey ticking boxes for the sake of it. He said if it was true CPD, I would not have dilated to 7cm because there would never have been pressure on the cervix at all. I asked whether he believes I would need a c-sec with my next and he said no way. He'd prefer me to labour vaginally and take it from there...

"each birth is different" were his words.

He also used the phrase "some obs are so scalpel happy"

He believes that some of the communication issues/management of me in hospital was severely lacking and he will take it up with the people that it occured with - including my OB that did the surgery.

All in all...

a) Tara's birth was complicated beyond what I thought it was, and though I may have gotten there in the end, it may have been to her cost (waiting for her to descend more while she was already in large distres).

b) I can have a natural birth next time *yippee!*

c) I feel much better.

The good, The bad, and the just plain ugly...

The good...

Tara slept FANTASTICALLY last night. Went to sleep in her rocker at around 7 or 7.30pm. And slept. And slept. And slept. I had to carry her upstairs to get her to bed - where I then had to wake her to change her nappy into her night nappy. She was not happy. Crying in her sleep (she refused to wake properly!) so I then gave boobie juice and she was out to the count in under 5 mins. Decided to keep her in the bed with me in her sleeping bag and she just kept sleeping. Occasional booby for 2 min resettles... and a big feed at 7am, only for her to wake up at 8.50am. *boggle* yup. My girlie must have been tired!

The bad...

Tara has nappy rash of some sort. Noticed it last Tuesday and it seems to come and go. It appears to be a contact rash - like she is reacting to her wee/poo. I have not changed what I am eating so not sure what could be causing it. Poor girlie. The Brauers Nappy Rash cream is great - but I am running out of the sample pack I had - so need to find more... My poor girlie.

The ugly...

I thought OH put the washing on last night so that I could have some nappies for today. Nope. We have *barely* any detergant - a washing machine full of dirty nappies, and an appointment to be at in 3 hours. So I used what detergant we had... a squirt of shampoo, filled up the washing machine with the hose to make it fill faster, and am hoping that it will finish in the next 20 mins so I can select a few nappies and put them in the dryer and beg that they are dry for when we go out... ARGH.

Side note...

Longies are finished - except for the embelishments. Spider web added to knee... bat needs to have his ridges added... eep. I am excited! *big kev*

Countdown...

... 3/4 of the second leg done...

then to finish the embelishment/pattern on it. Was going to add more, but I think the bat on the bum will be enough.... eep.

Sleep! Glorious sleep!

I got some last night! Tara decided to only wake a couple of times for feeds... not before my boobs leaked everywhere and I had to lay on a towel for the rest of the night. LOL. But it was nice to have a long sleep again. Or at least to not wake up and feel sleepy still!

Though having said all that... she's in a crying mood today... my poor baby.

About to finish the leg on the longies... ready for the next leg... I am so tempted to just start a soaker though... Tara pooped on the one Stacey made... and the one Katy made is being lanolised already... so I have none... !

Better get to it then!

Turn back time!

So I can get some more sleep! Who's stupid idea was it for me to stay up (being a hyena), until almost one, only to have to feed the girl between bed and wake up time at 6.30...?!

I am starting to feel really blah now. Like I spent the night in a seedy bar inhaling smoke and drinking too much. I guess those hangovers I thought I had as a reckless teen were simply me suffering lack of sleep!

I have to say it was worth it though! I got a black nappy with neon butterflies on it from Cherubs Kiss. It is a HoneyBoy Basic and I cannot wait to get it! It is sooo very cool.

There is a nappy soaker there looking at me at the moment - however I just found out my Bubblebubs are ready now! EEP. so exciting. I think I may just burst stalking the posty for my dragonfly nappy. Photos will come promptly after they arrive. I just have to kick the OH a couple of times to get him to pay up. Afterall - he was the one who said go and buy!

I started doing some work on Designs by Kristie last night. Will do more work on it tomorrow, but I decided to put up a splash page for now. Might as well start pimping. Apparently someone else out there is about to start offering the same as me... bugger.

Knowing my luck they'll understand blasted Zen Cart.