Monday, August 14, 2006

Two years, in a blink of an eye.


Today is a very special day, a little girl, with wild hair and a cheeky smile, turns two.

Two years ago I sat in an office on the computer MSNing away, when I get a message... "hehe. I think somethings starting". I was so excited for you. I had followed your pregnancy through right from the beginning. Finally bub was on the way.

For a couple of hours we chatted back and forth. The initial chat was fast and furious, but as the contractions built up you were needing time to focus and go through them.

"I think we are going to the hospital now". Wow. Things had really kicked up. For the rest of the day I sat twiddling my thumbs, thinking of you, sending my love, longing to hear the news.

Once I got hom that night, and had not had a phone call, I was a little scared for you. I sent all my love, hoping things were going ok.

I did not get a phone call for about 24 hours after Kira's arrival. By that stage, I was pretty certain you'd had a c-section. Jake sounded so exhausted on the phone when he confirmed the surgery. My heart sank knowing things had not gone to plan. I just wanted to hug you, tell you how great you'd been.

I got to talk to you online once you got home briefly, but being a new mother, time was never on your side.

Days morphed into weeks, into months. We'd go so long without talking, but could just pick up where we left off. Then I found out I was pregnant. You were such a guiding light to me. Such a role model. You gave me information, love and support while I researched everything I could.

Just after Kira's first birthday I came to visit. She was amazing. So calm, so beautiful and easy going. She was so happy! Watching her get her to her feet and stand was so cute and funny. I loved seeing the little person she was growing into. I loved seeing how the choices you had made had helped this beautiful girl turn out to who she was. These were often the same ideals I was hoping to live up to with my little one.

In November I had my own little girl and one of the first people I wanted to tell - or at least have the message passed onto - was you. I kept pestering Ally - Call Stacey! Call Stacey! When I got a phone call from you in hospital I felt so honoured you would take the time to call.

So hear we are now on Kira's second birthday. I just do not know where the time has gone.I see you posting photos, antics and day to day activities of her and think what a wonderful job you have done. It has not been easy for you, I know. I wish I'd been able to talk to you more, but being mothers - does not make it easy at times.

Today is not just about your beautiful girl - it is about you as well. About all the amazing milestones you have accomplished - how far you have come on your journey. The way in which you have stood strong and looked forward when so ofen many others would have thrown the towel in and given up. Your dedication, your perserverance, your love and your friendship - all of these have shined and radiated since you became a mother.

Most of all, I just wanted to say - Happy Birthing Day Stacey. You are amazing. Take some time for yourself. Cry, reflect and rejoice. You are a wonderful mother, and Kira is a testament to all you have accomplished and done.

xx

Credits: Faer Oak Brand New Day kit for paper, fibre, flowers, sequin. Metal Tag is Brand New Day kit Chris Turnbull, ric rac is Annette Farrelly - all from Pickleberry Pop!

5 comments:

Mr B said...

What a lovely post !

Anonymous said...

aaaaw, happy birthday Miss Kira and happy birthing day Stace.

Rae said...

Oh Stacey will bawl buckets when she reads this! What a great friend you are Kristie and written so beautifully!

Kat said...

Oh Kristie what a beautiful reflection for a friend, we are big Kira and Stace fans here too. You have a captured such a beautiful journey together! I'll sneek another Happy Birthday Kira in too :)

Stacey said...

Oh wow was not expecting to read this! Thank you so much Kristie... this means so much. You've always been a massive support to me, and through my pregnancy you were the main person I whinged to, confided in, and shared the journey with (well, apart from Kira - and Jake LOL). I really regretted not being able to do the same for you :(. I love that we can connect so easily after not being in contact for a while though :D.

This gave me shivers - not bawling, because today is not for crying ;). But you captured it so well, and brought back so many memories. So thank you *hugs*.