Handfasting

If he does not want to do it, why won't he just come out and say it, instead of pandering my ego by saying "not decided yet"

It's bloody 50-and-a-bit days away. I want to know. It's one thing I am dying to have in the ceremony...

but I doubt I'll get it.




Life feels so fucked up right now.
Too much negative energy around me. Maybe I am just calling it all around me. Maybe I ran over a cat in a past life and this is Karma's way of saying hi to me.