So, it's been over a year...

It has been over a year since my last post and even though I have thought about blogging lots since then, I have not been sure whether I wanted to update THIS blog. But I figure it is easier than starting a new blog right at this moment - that can come later.

Tara is now 4. Can you believe it? I can't. Some days I look at her and she is my month old little baby, with chubby cheeks and a deep set dimple. And then I look at her and it is a glimpse through a looking glass to when she is 13 and off to high school. The other days it is her just being 4. Beautiful, glorious 4.

I was talking to mum tonight about how she has lost some of her baby fat through her face and shoulders this last month (thanks to a vicious dose of vomiting gastro), and how she looks so wonderfully energetic, and young, and vibrant.

She has a couple of obsessions. One she is slowly (hopefully) growing out of - and that is Pooh Bear. She has Pooh Bear doonas (yes, plural!), lamps, clocks, toys and lots of books. I am hoping this one is a passing phase, for while I do like Pooh Bear, I am a classicist at heart and wish that the Disneyified crap would go elsewhere.

Dance is still a major part of her life and she is very much a singing and dancing kinda girl. She loves doing dancing anywhere and everywhere, and gate crashing a busker in the street is one of her favourite pasttimes.

Her other major obsession is PONIES! Wow, does she love her ponies. Any pony toy, book, story.. you name it - she loves it. And don't get her started on the real things. She loves horse riding when she gets a chance (she has a ride coming up in a couple of weeks) and would love to do it every week. Not that we can afford to do so in the Sydney CBD.

And she's getting a mighty fine collection of My Little Ponies now - thanks to ebay and the grandparents!

She is going to preschool 2 days a week and has some lovely lovely friends there. And I'm even making some friends through the other mothers which is really nice. Unfortunately one of her Best Friends is going to be leaving in a month and I'll have to deal with that fall out. thank goodness she can't remember that her old best friend at preschool left her too.

We have made a decision where we are going to send her to school, which is a massive load off my mind. I hope to become part of the P and C over the next year to become a bit more familiar with the community and the school. I think it will be a good way for us to get to know the small community.

As for me, I am doing ok As you have probably guessed, I am still no pregnant. Still trying. Still not getting anywhere. I'd love to have another child, but I am beginning to loose faith in the whole process. My mental state is not doing great over it all, but I try no to dwell on it.

My business is going very slow, and I have not made much in the way of sales for a while. I hope with a change of business structure over the next couple of months that things might pick up again and I'll be able to actually make money instead of loosing it. Keep your eyes out though, it's a bit exciting.

I'm also just about to finish my Childbirth Educator Course. OMG. I am so excited that I might actually just finish this! I am on the tail end, hopefully will have it finished within the next month.

Ally is working lots and lots and lots, but that is hopefully going to settle down soon.

We've been to New Zealand, Perth, Victoria, Canberra in the last 6 months or so, which has been a massive dose of excitement. Hopefully we get to do some more travelling soon, it really is refreshing to the system.

Anyways. that's it for now. I'm going to TRY and do more posts. hoping hoping. fingers crossed

stay posted

I plan on doing a BIG post in the next few days. in the mean time

*been away for 6 weeks
*had a wonderful christmas
*tara is beautiful
*I have a new computer
*I love my hubby
*life is treating me ok at the moment
*feeling more positive about the year ahead

Two Posts in Two days... whatever will you do?!

You'd think that after 5 years of living here, my neighbours would have had enough of yelling each other. But noooo. As each subsequent child gets older, and hits their later adolescent years the fights get louder.

Mental note for anyone hiring vehicles. If you are ever asked to top up the fuel - please take note of what fuel the vehicle requires. Otherwise the people who use it next will not be very happy little cookies. Just ask Ally.

Tara apparently had no problems with day care today. And someone even brushed her hair! (it was such a mess when I sent her!)

If you found some money on the ground (more than ten bucks) what would you do with it? If you take the money, will Karma come back and bite you? Or is Karma just rewarding you for all the prior good deeds? Would handing it in be slapping poor Karma in the face? Or exponentially increasing the bounty for next time?

Is it wrong to feel fluttery when a workman flashes you "one of those smiles" when you are standing right next to your husband?

I love my new handbag. Ruby you inspired me when you were here with all your talk of finding the right bag.

I am adoring bellydancing. Now, if only I was good at it.

My eyes are barely staying open.

Good Night.

Love you. I do!

It has been too long. I know. I suck. Let's move on, shall we?

Tara is adorable. Today we were at an ABA meeting showing people how to use slings and baby carriers and I had Tara in a front carry ring sling for a while. She grabbed me by the cheeks and planted a gentle kiss on my lips. Again. And again. And again! It was a magical moment of kissing.

We have been having a lot of fun out recently. It is lovely. I enjoy her so much. Most of the time at least!!

Her language is slowly taking off. She's speaking in many sentences at the moment. Unfortunately I am the only one who can understand her. And it's not just me interpreting what she is saying, I can hear the different sounds she makes and knows what it is she wants. Ally has to often ask me to translate for him because he has no idea.

I am on the hunt for a blue and black tutu at the moment. I found one on etsy that I love, but I would prefer to keep the money in australia and pay less money for it (it's still cheap, so I might do it anyways). I might make her a white tutu to start with though since i have so much tulle left over from the wedding. Here is the Etsy listing.

I am doing OK. I am still very down about not being pregnant and as much as I try not to think about it, we are coming up to a year soon and while that is not long in many peoples books, it is a long time for me. I really really need to get myself to a doctor and get myself looked at. Though, as the saying goes, it takes two to tango, so we should probably see the doc together and take it from there. I am over the heartbreak though. My cycles are all over the place My last cycle was 49 days.

I am trying to do some websites at the moment. Some very exciting things going on. If only I could get the other half to understand I am serious when I request he does something in regards to domains and hosting and things like that. It would make it a lot easier.

Leah at http://ozazure.blogspot.com posted about Reborn Dolls the other day with a video link. It connects my latest obsession with trying to find one of these dolls. I can't afford a workshop yet, and am not sure I really want to get into the painting side, though, I probably would if I had the space. I really need to make the studio usable upstairs. Anyways, at the moment I am designing a website for two places, one for a SAHM, the other for a Reborn Nursery (none in particular). I am hoping I might be able to trade the website design template and all the graphics associated with it (and a domain name as well) as a package to someone who might like to trade for a Doll. I Just need to find the perfect Kit at the moment. I have fallen in love with the folks at Bountiful Baby and am part of the forums there. They have been so lovely!! Hopefully someone there will fall in love with my Website stuff and will trade off for a doll. Each doll values from between $150 and $500 - with some getting up in the thousands. This is one of my favourite Dolls... Paisley . NOw wile I understand some people are not very into these dolls, for me I adore both the newborn aspect, but I really appreciate the artistic skill need to make one of these dolls REAL. I am *very* fussy with the type of doll I like.. though many are cute and beautiful, there are some things I prefer not to see on a doll, and some things that I really think a doll needs..... argh. I am such a critic LOL.

My best friend Ruby was up for a week. I missed her the moment she left. She was amazing to have here and really helped me, and I think picked up my spirits a bit. I think I have been trapped in a bit of a slump and having her here really helped pull me out of it a bit. I am glad she visited, even if it was because she had to get out of warrnambool.

My course is goign good, though I really need to get back into it a bit more. I have been having a bit of a rest but I think it is time to pull up my bootstraps. I am itching to start taking clients... I really should get my act together though!!

Right... I think this is enough for now... I have not died. I am still around. Miss you all. I follow your blogs lots! Post your blog below though in case I don't - I will add you to my feed!

Much love

K xx

Bare with me while I grovel

Please forgive me! I've been a slack blogger. I've just had zero inspiration to blog at the moment. Life has been busy, hectic, crazy, weird.

So. I have LOTS to catch up on.

First - I have been Tagged....

Seven random facts

Here are the rules:
1. Link to your tagger and post these rules on your blog.
2. Share 7 facts about yourself on your blog, some random, some weird.
3. Tag 7 people at the end of your post by leaving their names as well as links to their blogs.
4. Let them know they are tagged by leaving a comment on their blog.

Now, pretty much everyone I know has been tagged - so if you read this thread and have NOT been tagged, consider yourself so. Leave me a post to tell me, and I'll come visit! :)

1. I have developed a fear of balloons. Helium ones specifically, but not exclusively. And it's only if they are rubbing near my ears. I freak out. Start hyperventilating almost. Sweat. Want to run away. Thank you Westfield Shopping Centre for providing my child with the balloon to start this fear.

2. I still dream in Danish often. But have to try and translate when I wake up. really weird. (I lived in Denmark for a year in 1997)

3. I have had surgery 3 times in my life.

4. Some days I wish I was uber Hippy. Others I wish I was just uber hip. I have bad sense in clothes, shoes and how to carry myself eloquently. I admire women who can be both hippy and hip/mainstream without much effort in their looks. And yes, my looks are important to me, don't shoot me.

5. I am a shopaholic with no boundaries with spending. I have no idea how to do it. Never worked it out. I struggle big time. If there is money there it burns a hole in my pocket, so I try not to have it. At the same time I loath the fact I cannot just go into a store and buy something because it is there. Money is one of my worst enemies. Myself is one of the other enemies.

6. I long for old friendships - even if they were toxic and bad for me. I reminisce about days-of-old, what we used to do, where we could have gone with the friendships. I mourn some of these often. Though at times, I am so glad these are out of my life.

7. I long to have my own car. Or a bike trailer. Though would need to get my bike out of the store room. Maybe I could try that today.
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Ok... so that catch up is done.

next. Tara had the pox. It was not too bad, all things considered. Unless you take into account the worry and stress and self loathing I placed on myself for potentially infecting a tonne of people at the park because I mis-read some information I was given. So so so sorry still.

She got most of the spots on her face and her back left shoulder. They are all healed now, and barely a scab is left. Here is a photo to show the spots! (all the other photos are blurry. My "new" camera sucks!)



While we are talking about Tara... She's completely in knickers now - even for bed. Big yay! (not photo with knickers). Though most of the time she is naked from the waist down...



Here is a random photo of Tara over christmas holidays at nanna's house.



When we realised Tara had chickenpox we made a very quick trip down to the pet store and we bought some new residents for our house. We set the tank up in her room (we had the tank already - it just needed fish!) We have had one fatality, but the rest are doing fantastically! No names. They are just "Fiss!"




In other news, I am thinking about getting my nose pierced. Though I think about this at least once a year, so don't put much weight into it yet!

I am studying and reading lots at the moment. Still have not sent my ABA stuff in. I should print off the stuff today.

I have been doing OK on my domestic Goddess Challenge. I managed to clean my desk! *gasp!*

Here is a before (don't throw up or ridicule me! it takes a lot for me to show this!!)



and here is the after!



I am so VERY proud of myself! I have even catalogued my birth library of books! I have a program on my computer called eLibPro, as well as a program online LibraryThing - my list. I really love having all the details quickly available. Will be good for people to look at and borrow should they wish! :) I need to start collecting some more books though.. :) haha.

Talking of books, I am selling some. Anyone want a book on Cavaliers, Bonsai or weddings? I have a few self help books as well.

OK. I am going to publish this post and have a think about other things I need to inform the world about! for now, I'll sign off. mwah!

It's terrible!

It is so terrible. How much I have neglected this blog. I just have been busy and tired and then feeling horrible for not blogging and so I don't blog LOL.

I thought I had better just break the ice and jump in again.

So many things I need to blog about that have gone on, but I can't think of any of them right now!

Tara has her birthday party on Sunday. Am very excited. Butterflies and fairies.

Ally and I have been both working hard on our respective new businesses. I ordered brand labels today for my nappies.

I've got the money to order my microfleece - I wish I could pay for it now LOL. but the shipment of fabric has not come in yet. I should have just told the lady to keep her money when she paid for some work - I'm just going to spend it going back to her!

I have submitted my artwork for my business cards. I hope I get the celloglazed ones, but if not, I will be happy with the value cards. Can't complain about freebie cards.

Sunburn sux. My back is itchy and starting to peel.

I now own a snap press.

Tara is still not really talking - I think she may actually have a tongue tie. But as I have said elsewhere, maybe I am just projecting my fears - though having done some research it seems more likely she does have one. would explain a lot of issues in the beginning.

Not long until christmas. I am looking forward to it - though it's going to be me sewing a lot!

I miss Ruby and Alice tonnes. I miss the closeness we had during the wedding phase.

Um. can't think of much right now - but at least I have broken the blogging drought.

xx